Art is Love

Where is the key? Where is it? Where did I put it? Which way should I go?  I'm completely lost. I don't know the way anymore. I don't know what to do anymore. Who am I? What am I? What? What?! What am I?! Who am I?! What do I want really? Why do I feel like I have a memory gape? Is it normal to have only fragment of memories? I don't remember when I got lost myself? I don't remember the trigger of losing myself or when it started. It hurs so much. My chest feels pain. Is it the consequent for bottle up all my problems and emotions? Anger, frustration, all those I want scream out. I want to lash out! I want to cry alout! I want to trash my room in to mess! I want to release all my emotion out! But I don't know how to express my emotion except crying silently. No, that not it. I'm afraid that if I unleash my bottle up my emotion, that I will lose my sanity. I'm afraid that I'm not me anymore. I'm afraid of my true self. ...

First thing is I want ranting about a my school! I got this afternoon from my friend Tee, who also go same school as me. She asked first when we have school again after Intership. I answerd on 16th Mai. After that she told me that the school principal told her, that the school start on 9th Mai. WTF?! The reason is, that we have 1 week to much intership. D: 1WEEK! damn, there is nothing to lose, if we work 1 week more or less. >__> Only what we lose it the time for work on our Diplom project. They will also send us letter about school start ect. on April. I only hope, it will be beginn of April. °____° Otherwise I'm seriously gonna on rampage. Coz my contracs goes until 6th Mai and come back from Germany to Switzerland in two days I won't manage...especialy not with car D: I'm slow driver on germany Highway and I have also manage other stuff in Leipzig and Switzerland when I come back. Orz I'm completly annyoned :< I will finish with ranting and now I'm ...