depression weekend D:

Ewww, my weekend was so depression D:

because of public holiday, thoud I don't get really involed 

exept that some people wished me "Happy Easter". -___-;

and the other thing was my personality stuff.

Mostly I looked my self in my appartment and I never went outside.

Only when my mother called to give me easter chocolate and

a japanese sweet stuff, that my father didn't want eat.

I also cried one time, because I was scared, 

when I remeber the vision/dream that I had on friday.

That happend when I was thinking about something and 

for few second a picture flashed front of my eyes, 

how I was grabing a friends head and smashed her on the wall.

Most scary is that the place was at my school. *shiver*

That thing isn't first time happend...

few years ago I had same way a vision, only it was a part of my past memory.

That's why I didn't really care that time.

But now I'm really scared...

and I also don't know what to do. Dx 

I know I'm really scary cat, but I'm also really sensitive and 

when I'm scared or have depression I always feels sick... Orz

I'm also scared, what if I don't find internship. D:

Yesterday, I was writing a mail to my boss and while I was writing in german I noticed, that I mixed english and german in one sentence. \(°∆°)\ /(°∆°)/ Nooo!

My old habit come back!! ><

Orz