lives more in own world

I wonder when I started creat my own unexistend world. I don't really remember anymore. But I noticed, that I gonna lose more and more the realty world. Event thought I have to come back to the real world and yet I want stay more in my own world, because I love my world than the real world. Some people complaine, that they never know what goes in my brain, because I hardly talk. Talking is not my ability and when I was small kid, I lost once my voice or better to say the muscle to walk and talk. When I tryed to talk first time after woke up from fake coma. I couldn't say a word and since then I didn't want talk anymore for a while. From time to time I started to talk slowly again and if people didn't understand me and asked me "sorry, what did you say?", then I didn't reaped it again and beeing quiet again.
Even know I have still problem with talking, but I'm trying. Some language is easy to talk for me some feels my troat hurt.