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Afraid of myself

Where is the key?
Where is it?
Where did I put it?
Which way should I go? 
I'm completely lost.
I don't know the way anymore.
I don't know what to do anymore.
Who am I?
What am I?
What? What?! What am I?!
Who am I?!
What do I want really?
Why do I feel like I have a memory gape?
Is it normal to have only fragment of memories?
I don't remember when I got lost myself?
I don't remember the trigger of losing myself or when it started.
It hurs so much.
My chest feels pain.
Is it the consequent for bottle up all my problems and emotions?
Anger, frustration, all those I want scream out.
I want to lash out!
I want to cry alout!
I want to trash my room in to mess!
I want to release all my emotion out!
But I don't know how to express my emotion except crying silently.
No, that not it.
I'm afraid that if I unleash my bottle up my emotion, that I will lose my sanity.
I'm afraid that I'm not me anymore.
I'm afraid of my true self.
My inside want out.
Those…