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Who am I ?! Wer bin ich ?! (Poem/Gedicht)

Who am I really?
Why do I always stand front of two different route and have to decide?
It's always difficult to take the right route without to lose the route.
Is my attitude only simulated or real?
Do I ware a mask, that I can't take anymore off?
I don't know, who I am... but I want know more about me....
however I don't find the key to open the door.
I see my reflection and ask my self, if that am I...
I want open me and go own route, but I'm afraid, that don't see me like I know me now...
I don't know anymore what I should do...
I don't know...!


Wer bin ich eigentlich?
Warum steh ich immer vor zwei verschiedene Wege und muss entscheiden?
Es ist immer so schwierig den richtigen Weg zu wählen. Ohne das man von der Weg abkommt.
Ist mein verhalten nur vorgetäuscht oder echt?
Trage ich eine Maske, die ich nicht mehr abnehmen kann?
Ich weiss nicht, wer ich bin... aber ich möchte mich selbst kennenlernen...
Dennoch finde ich den Schlüssel um den Tor zu öffnen nicht.
Ich sehe mein Spiegelbild und frage mich, ob ich dass bin...
Ich möchte mich öffnen und meine Weg gehean, aber ich habe angst mich nicht mehr so zu sehn wie ich jetzt bin...
Ich weiss nicht mehr was ich tun soll...
Ich weiss es nicht...!

Comments

  1. gefällt mir..der text.

    sich selber zu finden ist nicht immer einfach, und vieles das man geglaubt hat zu sein, ist man plötzlich nicht mehr. Man kann vieles verlieren, das man geglaubt hat zu lieben...
    Irgendwann findet man sich selber....

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  2. @noêlle: Der text habe ich selbst geschrieben und es ist nicht einfach wieder von eigene dunkle schatten überspringen...

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  3. ja das ist wohl war...das kenne ich gut...manchmal braucht man dazu auch fremde hilfe...leute die einem helfen, zu finden, wer man selber ist.

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