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soul ache

I feel sick again... not physical, it's more the soul side -___-;;
lately I have this feeling of pain of my soul often...
and I don't know from what and that's irritate me more!
But I can't/shouldn't break down now, coz I have many thing to do now...
searching internship for summer to mai 2011,
drawing comic for Sport Organation Wizards monthly,
Schoolproject Illustration
and
finish painting from school subject -___-;;;

I have to stand own my feed and carring around the paines with me.
I hope, I will recover soon °___°;;

btw I don't need your pityness... I only wrote this, because I wanted
I also don't want get treat as "special person".... it's make me always sick, too.
No need worry about me....
 Really!
My will is strong enough to survive and recover.















only one thing I never recoverd from my broken soul...
and it will never heal, because it's long time ago
left in the past.


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