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wasting my time?

It's been a while, that I blogged something about my lifetime 8D
I was and is still busy... |||Orz

Last week I was running around like idiot after work to go to Car garage, because I had still my summer tire on it and my winter tire is in switzerland. Beside I didn't know, that my parents pay for me the winter tire again...so I changed really late, coz last week started to snow D: Once when I wanted drive to garage I got lost, so I tried next day and I found it. xD last thursday evening I could finally change the tire, yay :D... but I on friday I had to go there again, coz I forgot my carlicence at garage Orz. Seriously I wasted my gas for my stupidness D:

Lately I think, I'm wasting my time more at work than home D:... I dunno really why, but I'm more desperated to work on my own arts than working at work.
Somehow I endet up work more on graphic side than illustration at work. I'm may color at work somethimes, when the outline is done from Illustraition boss or from other people. Often I do Vector Graphic, Photo montage (?) or searching picture for putting magazine that boss can buy. It's not that I don't like my work...I have still fun to work, but somehow it feels wasting my time. (.____.)
(I know it's really selfish of me)
I guess you ask "why I don't do from sketch the illustration and only coloring?"... That's becauce my style don't fit to the kids bible lesson book/magazine. I really have to get away from Manga style, but even if I try to draw european comic way...somehow it mix bit manga way and since I draw Manga style allready for few years...it isn't easy to get away from it. Orz

Anyway my small finger got little bumps from to much drawing |D... 8 Hours at work using graphic tablet during week and on the weekend also allmost 8 hours or more.

My to do list for this month looks like that:

- X-mas gift for my girlfriend
- b-day Pic for Allen Walker from DGM
- 2 request from Deviant Art
- some random arts....


here is the WIP for my Girlfriends pic (took on 4.12.2010):

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