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pessimist artist

Hello dear readers, if someone even read my blog lol 8D

I bought today canvas 40x50 cm big and few acryl color. I also started paint on it :DD It's really been a while, that I draw something traditonal arts exept pencil sketches. xD I will post it when I finish it with the art prozess :)

As you read my titel, I'm a pessimist artist. You ask why? Coz I'm. xD No the reason is, that I'm never saticfite with my own art and if I'm, then it's only for few moment. After that I start frown at my art again. Beside my arts has connection with death. The charakter that I draw looks mostly really broken and dead yet alive. A friend of mine asked me, if there a reason behind, why I draw such kind of arts. That time I couldn't anwser and still now not really. Maybe it faszinate me the death, thought many  people are afraid of death. For me is death mystery. Coz you never know when you really die and there is many way to die. From accident, natural death, killed ect. Somethimes when people died and yet came back from death, is for some people miracle. For me is that only the heart stopped beat, but the brain is still alive and when people has strong mind to live, so the brain can give signal to work beat heart again. It's my thinking way and I really think that death is really mystery.

the other thing that I wanted write is "This world is so boring and grey. In my world is surreal and colorfull". I view this world as boring and grey. Even thought few people wear color ect. and yet for me is boring world, coz the daily live routine allways same, mostly. So I started creat my own world in my own mind and soul which I can change the shape, colorness ect. The art that I paint is reflecting from my world that I creat. I know my art type often happend beeing death theme, but the surrealistig and colorfullness, I bring the emotion in the art and it's not always same. I don't like when my arts is black and white, coz it feels only empty and not emotion. That's why I stopped to to draw black and white as possible.

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  1. I find your idea and motivation really beautiful.
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