Freunde???/Friends??? (Gedicht/Poem)

Freunde????

Was ist dann, wenn man das Wort "Freunde" sieht und einem übel wird?

"Freunde", was ist das eigentlich?
Ich kann mit diesem Wort nicht anfangen, denn es verwirrt mich nur...
Ausserdem wird es mir immer übel, wenn ich nur daran denke...
Bin ich den so sehr gesunken, dass ich nur wegen der einzige Wort davon flüchte oder bilde ich mir das nur alles ein?
Ich fühle nur leere, wenn ich das Wort "Freunde" sehe.
Ich irre mich wie in eine dunkle Labyrinth und könnte mich für mein Rest Lebens herum irren.
Für immer in einer Teufelskreis gefangen bleiben....

Friends???

What is, if you see the word "Friends" and you feel sick?

"Friends", what is it actually?
I can't do anything with that "word", because it's confus me...
By the way I feel always sick, when I think about it...
Did I fall so low, that I run away from a one word or am I wrong?
I feel only empty, if I see the word "Friends".
I stray like in a dark labyrinth and I can stray for rest of my life.
forever in vicious circle captured...

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