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Poem II


I wrote this Poem for about 3 month ago...


What do you know about me?!
What do you know about my feeling?!
You don't know about me and my feelings, so keep out of it!
Some feelings, that I can't handel it and I don't even tell, witch feeling it is.
Then you can't solve my problems.
Do you have pity with me, that I'm withdrawn?!
I don't need your pity to me, then that irritate me.
You don't need to know, what I thinking, because it's my brain and keep out of it!!
I'm like I'm and I will not alout from nobody to change me.
If you swear or snap at me, so I will ignor you.
Don't compare me with other person, that I will realy hate!!

So leave me alone in this small world with that person, that I love from howl my heart!!!




Was wisst ihr schon über mich?!
Was wisst ihr über meine Gefühle?!
Ihr kenn mich und meine Gefühle nicht, also haltet ihr euch am besten daraus!
Es gibt Gefühle, die ich nicht umgehen kann und ich werde auch nicht verraten welches
ist.
Denn ihr könnt meine Problemen nicht lösen.
Habt ihr Mitlied mit mir, dass ich verschlossen bin?!
Das Mitleid brauche ich nicht, denn es irritiert mich nur.
Ihr müsst auch nicht wissen, was in mein Kopf vorgeht, denn es ist mein Gehirn und das geht euch nichts an!
Ich bin so wie ich bin und lasse mich von niemand verändern.
Wenn ihr mich beschimpft oder anmotzt, so werde ich euch ignorieren.
Es intressiert mich auch nicht, was ihr von mir halten.
Vergleicht mich nicht mit irgendwechle Personen, denn DAS hasse ich am meisten!!

So lasst mich in dieser kleine Welt allein mit derjenige, die ich aus ganzem Herzen liebe!!

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