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I'm back from my chaos life

Ciao~
It's been a while that I'm writing something about me. Not that someone would missed me, hahaha.

Anyway the reason that I didn't upload constandly, because I had bit privat matter and pressur from my family. Mostly it's cleared now. 
 First of all my mother was pushing me find a job until end of this year and if I can't. I get kicked out of my appartment. At least I have now a part time job for once or twice a week. It's not much about salery, but better than nothing. I'm searching a fulltime job as Graphic designer, but unfornetly all apply that I send, got turned down. Otherside I'm also searching for other work, that I could do. example: Barmaid, Callagent ect. Exept constraction work or something like that, because I'm to frail.
I noticed that I didn't write what kind of partime job I'm doing. My partimejob is advertimsmet catalog delivering in my town.

The other thing was, that my ex-girlfriend broke up with me beginn of september. It's not that I was really depressed about it. Because I accept her break up reason. More frustraite/anger was that my ex-girlfriend had a new boyfriend after about 3 week break up. I only found out because of the facebook relationship status. I thought, "Thanks facebook... you really don't need to open my still healing wound in my soul" D: Anyway it's not really my buisiness anymore.

Aside of that I have two delimma. First is about my weight. I lost my weight again and I'm only 45,7Kg and two month ago I was 47,6Kg and two years ago 52Kg. I know my people envy me, that I can lose easly my weight. For me is annyoning. But if I gain a bit weight I feel fat, even thought I'm not.  I'm far to skinny. Orz

The second delimma is that I currently dislike my art as always and I think that my art became bit uglyer. Orz



 
Frankenstein and Yu (not finished yet and not saticfited at all)



Oh~ I didn't smoke last three month. It's not that I'm trying to stop to smoke. It's only that I don't feel to smoke a cigarret. But slowly I can feel that my body start to carving for nicotine. lol


I guess that all I want wrtie know. 

See ya next time. Ciao ciao~ (^_^)/シ

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